A Riddle Created for a Longing Heart

The scent of a memory long forgotten.

A reality right in front of my eyes but just out of phase.

An echo from the depths of my soul.

Only the faint feeling of wonder remains.

For a moment everything is meaningful,

And I can almost remember who I truly am.

The memory of such pure joy now it feels a bit like sadness.

And oh it passes, and why does is pass, why must it pass.

Even if I can hold on for a moment, even for more than a moment.

Eventually it passes, and I cannot pick up where I left off,

Because it was complete for a second, but it was only for that second.

It’s always in the same place where I find it, but I cannot travel there by choice.

I can trace my eyes around it but never really see it.

A riddle created for a longing heart.

The one that sets off to find itself, and does,

Then realizes it has simply found the way back home.

My Thoughts on My Birthday

Mostly gratitude actually, my thoughts are mostly thankful, but once in awhile I see something I want and something inside me says, “that should be me” or “that should be mine” or “why can’t I.” 

Yet when ever these thoughts come I have found I have the strength to speak back, “That could be me, but why does it matter? I am content with what I have.” I have been given the grace to discern what truly matters, possess what is truly lasting, and to live in unity with my beloved family, and brother and sisters in Christ. 

My prayer for the coming year is that I will be able to serve others with greater unselfishness. That my capacity to give and receive love will grow. And that God will both help me see the meaning and purpose in what I do every day; as well expand my opportunities to experience his purpose by doing his will in big or small ways. 

In the end what you do is not as important and the sprit in which it was done. At the same time I know in the coming year there has been planned in advance good works to be done, times at which I feel truly at one with my God, feel completely in love, experience loss (with its corresponding amount of grace), and a least a few moments of laughter to make sure I don’t take myself to seriously.

And I am looking forward to living it with all of you…

Matthew 27:51-53

As we know the bible teaches us that when we die our spirits go up to heaven and await the resurrection of our bodies in their incorruptible form. The Bible also teaches us that God breathed life into mankind, and also when he welcomes to heaven he will read from the book of life, and will speak our true name. Growing up this is what I knew to be true, but I had not thought about it for some time. 

Recently while pondering this fact another thought occurred to me, and that thought was about DNA. What I know about DNA is this, it is the language that tells our cells who they are and what their purpose in the body is. It is also known that over the course of our lives we replace our cells over and over and therefore we are not, physically, who we were before. The only constant in our form is the language that is written on every cell. We also know, for some still unexplained reason that this process of rewriting ourselves eventually goes haywire and we grow old and die. 

The amazing thing could be this. That our true name, the one God writes in the book of life, is our actual form itself, in written form. The same stuff we see on this plain of existence as DNA. When the time comes God will speak our true name, and our form into existence. When the world is remade, when sin and death are gone, all God will have to do is speak that one singular unique name and our bodies will be created again in their true intended form.